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Surgery. . .

On the 25th of November, I went in for my annual exam as usual.  The doctor found a lump on my right breast.  Since it wasn’t small, and it was kinda big, she refered me to another doctor to find out if it was just a cyst, or a mass, or what.

So on Tuesday Dec 2nd, I went to see Dr. Puls.  He found the same thing (Surprise, it didn’t magically go away).  Supposedly they were going to do an ultra sound or a mamogram, but instead he decided to shove a needle in it and try to drain it (it hurt so bad). Nothing came out. So that confirmed what we were already pretty sure of, it’s a hard mass, not a mushy one.

So now, I have to have it removed. My Surgery is scheulded for December 18th.  I dont’ have a time yet.They are going to cut me open, and take it out. And I am so scared it isn’t even funny. They will test it to see if it is canerous or not.  Sucky thing is, we don’t have insurance.  Since we aren’t popping out kids we can’t afford, we don’t qualify for half the plans available out there.  Figures huh.  And I am not old enough to get on some of the other plans available.  We make only $2,000 a year over the limit to qualify for other plans. And since we own a house and dont’ rent, supposedly we have money!  HA.  What a crock of shit.

So I am going in to talk with the hospital about payment plans and such for the surgery.  I have NO idea what the cost will be, but it will get paid for.  We don’t have excellent credit for nothing! 

Oh, and I am still getting my damn new kitchen for Christmas!  :P

So there, now you know what’s going on.  I am kinda freaked out.

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Good News, and Bad News

Well I have good News, and I have Bad News.

Friday Night we entered my Grandpa’s car into the Big Boy Cruise Night Car Show.  There was about 50 Cars that entered.  His car is a 1970 Chevy Malibu, that well here.  Just read this story that we put in the window of the car.

[quote]The Story of Great Grandma’s Car

In 1970 Walter Jarema took his wife Cecila to purchase a new car. Walter, who was an employee of Chrysler for over 43 years, told her she could pick any car she wanted. This was her very first brand new car.
The car she choose is the one you see before you. A 1970 Chevy Malibu, 307. She drove the car until 1986, when she gave up her driver’s license. She passed the car to her son, Carl Jarema, Engineer for the Detroit Fire Department. He cared for the car ever since, with the help of his son-in-law, and his grandchildren, John Carl, and Rebecca Lawrence.
The car was primarily driven to and from church by Great Grandma. She lived in Southwest Detroit. Grandpa primarily drove the car on Golf outings with his brother, Ed Jarema.
The car has 53,000 Original Miles and is original as factory show room. Show room exhaust, show room engine, show room paint, show room radio, no modifications, with the exception of a HEI ignition system (because points are hard to find!). Other then that, the car is a Factory Show Room Car.[/quote]

So that is the story behind the car.  It was the first real show we ever entered.  And Guess what, we took home the Trophy!  The managers at Big Boy all had to vote on a car, and they picked our car!

So Saturday was the continuation of the car show, but it was held by the Ramblin Rods Car Club.  Over 107 cars registered for the show.  They were all broken down into classes and such.  Our car was in Class F, Original or Restored 1970 or Newer. 

We were not expecting to have our name called becuase there were alot of cars in the same class as us.  When they started calling trophies for our class, we were SHOCKED when they gave us 2nd place!  WHOO HOO!

That is my dad and my youngest sister in the picture holding the two trophies. 

I don’t think anyone knew how much this meant to us.  You see, my grandpa, the current owner of the car, had not been doing really well.  He has a blood disease where he no longer produces white blood cells, so he has been getting transfusions.  Well, he got an infection in his foot a few weeks ago, and they had to amputate the front part of his foot, but they were to late.  The infection had already spread.

Since his body can’t produce white blood cells, the antibiotics have nothing to attach to, and the infection couldn’t be fought off fast enough.  So they asked him if he wanted to stay in the hospital, or go home, and he wanted to go home.

Friday Night my dad got to show him the trophy, and he still knew what was going on, and they said he smiled so big.  Saturday they said they showed him the other trophy and he smiled again.  So he got to see them both, and he was happy.

This morning about about 11am, he passed away, at home, surrounded by his three daughters, and his son-in-law.  He went in his sleep. 

Sorry if I am rambling, but I needed to talk a bit, and thought you guys would like to hear the Good and Bad News of my weekend.
Thanks for listening everyone.

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Will I?

Will I make it through tomorrow
Will I make it through the night
Will I survive all the sorrow
My thoughts are full of fright

Will my Mom be okay
Will my Grandpa live much longer
I know things that cause you pain
Can only make you stronger

I’m tired of being tired
I’m sick of feeling blue
I’m tired of all the worries
I’m wanting something new

A way to ease the stress
A way to calm my brain
A way to stop my thoughts
From causing all this strain

I know things will work out
And things will be alright
I know I will make it through this
And live through another night

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Global Warming!

This is just a short post to say that I have proof that Global Warming exists!  Yes, you read that right!  PROOF!! Ready.  Today is June 18th, 2008, and its 8:26am.  I am currently located in Alpena, Michigan which is just above the 45th Parallel.  The temperature outside, right now is . . . . 51 degrees Fahrenheit.  That’s right 51 degrees outside.  Summer official starts in two days.  The high for tomorrow is 62. 

So there you have it!  Global Warming. . . wait. . if it’s Global Warming. . . Shouldn’t it be getting warmer? 

And on a side note, we switched Shelby’s food, and she is doing much better!

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A Photo a Day, for 18 years

I was intrigued by the title of an article on www.Foxnews.com the other day.  The title read “Daily Polaroids Detail Last 18 Years of NYC Man’s Life.”  I bet it got your attention too!  It was about a man named Jamie Livingston who took at least one photo of his life, every day, for 18 years.  It started as a College Project and it continued on til the day he died.  Oddly enough, he died at the age of 41 on the same day of his birth.  He passed away in 1997, and yes there is a picture taken on the very last day of his life.

You can check out the pictures here http://photooftheday.hughcrawford.com/ I actually spent a lot of time going threw them.  His friends have always wanted to do this for him, as a memorial and to share his life with others.  I think they did an absolutely amazing job.  They also put all of the pictures up at Bard College, which is the college where Livingston started the project.  It filled a wall 120 feet by 8 feet. 

It’s erie to go and look at the pictures.  Towards the end you can really see the decline in his health.  Apparently he lost his battle with cancer.  It’s so sad to think that a man with such a interesting outlook on life, had to die so young.

Think about all the pictures you have taken.  When you go back and look at them, most of them are taken of important things such as Birthdays, Weddings, Vacations, Family Gatherings, but what happens to all the other days?  There are so many days that have passed where you have no pictures, which can also mean they have been forgotten all together.  How many things have you done, and already forgotten.  I know this is true because I have looked back at pictures and not remembered the day when I took them.  It’s very scary to think of all the things in life that we have already forgotten.  How much of our past is missing from our memories? 

Livingston’s story has a very tragic ending.  I wonder, if he would have beaten cancer, how long would he have continued taking Photos? 

Peace Out,  Kittie

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